First off, I’m not a big crier. My sister cries enough for the both of us. Ha!
But this morning I cried walking my husband out the door. Some of you might think it’s the hormones but it’s not. I love my husband more than anything in this world. To say we have an extraordinary love is an understatement. I’m thankful for the almost 9 years we’ve had together. To grow together, to find out who we are supposed to be, to really play out the type of husband and wife we want to be to one another, but most of all, I’m thankful that I have a best friend in my husband.
To love and be loved is one of the greatest gifts in the world. You are opening up your heart to someone and hoping that they see all of you. That they take all of you and hold you to the highest regard. But most of all, that they take your heart and treat it right.
My husband has loved me from day one, I’m not kidding either. I had a guarded heart and was slow to come around, but from the beginning it was completely obvious that God gave me him. I wouldn’t take back the time that I was hesitant because we both believe that we probably would have ruined our “thing” before it even got started. It’s all about timing and at 17 who really wants to find the person they will spend the rest of their life with. We needed time to be free and find out who we were. Even during that difficult time when someone always wanted more, we were best friends.
I could spend all day, every day with him. Sitting around the house, laying in bed, dreaming out loud together, doesn’t matter as long as we are together. I do have to admit that he was fine with leaving me and doing our own things but now things have changed. I used to be the one saying that I couldn’t sleep without him here and lately I’ve caught him saying that I stayed out too long and he couldn’t fall asleep. Makes my heart swoon! He now counts the days to the weekend so we can spend more time together. But it's not always puppy dogs and rainbows, we fight, we argue, and we get annoyed with one another. I always tell him, "I love you all the time but I don't like you very much right now".
I’m so glad that we will have waited 3 years of being married to have a baby. Some people think marriage is nothing but a piece of paper. Not in our minds. Marriage to us is living for the other person. We make decisions together, but most importantly it’s not “I” or “Me”, it’s “We'” and “Us”. We’re a package deal, take us or leave us.
I cried this morning not because he was leaving but because loving him as much as I do is uncontrollable. People cry because they are happy or sad or just need a good cry. I cry because when I love someone, I truly love them.
I love my husband.
I love our growing baby.
I love my family.
I love you!