Friday, March 18, 2011

Negative Nancies

No, Aunt Nancy, I'm not referring to you.

Negative Nancies are all around! They come in all sizes, shapes and forms. They creep around with their horrible attitudes, dropping their unwanted or unasked for advice. Negative Nancies leave a bad taste in my mouth. YUCK!

The first time R and I were told about my "problems" was in 2007. I'm not going to even try to hide this, we lived together so we would do what people who lived together do ;). When we received the news, we knew we would be married some day and that we wanted to have a baby together. So, honestly, R and I have been trying to have a baby naturally for 4 years. During this time my lovely sister found out she was pregnant with my beautiful niece. I was excited for them and just unbelievably crushed inside. It's hard watching your friends and family living out your dreams.

And just last weekend at my sister's baby shower, my dear friend A brought up a question I've been lingering on. "What if it doesn't work? Just because you take it doesn't mean you'll get pregnant." I love A! So, so, so much! But her statement has been ticking in my brain for a week now. What if it doesn't work? Most of the time it does. I know of 3 ladies who have taken it and it has happened for them the first round. Tick, Tick, Tick.....

My answer to you lovely A: If it doesn't work we will do another cycle with a higher dosage. If that doesn't work, we will do a third cycle with a higher dosage than the second. If that doesn't work, prayers that it does!, then we will go back and take a closer look at what my body is doing. We will start another cycle with the same medicine mixed with another. WE WILL HAVE A BABY OF OUR OWN! I know in my heart that that is true.

I will close with this: If I have to practically beg you to be happy for us, you are not a person who truly cares about us. Get on board. Because the happy train that we have been riding on since I picked up my medication doesn't have ANY room for Negative Nancies!

Attitudes are contagious.  Are yours worth catching? 
- Dennis and Wendy Mannering

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Hello Again!

What a long hiatus from blogging!

Life got busy! Nothing new to report. Still waiting for my cycle to start. Looks like I will need to call my doctor and get Provera to kick start my cycle for me. That's nothing knew either. I've taken it once or twice.

R and I had initially planned to start the meds after my internship was completed in May and allowing me some time to look for a job and begin in June. Well, how quickly things change! Jobs are limited all around us. There's little hope that I will find a position. Which is upsetting knowing I put all this time into a degree that is getting hit hard from the government. That's a whole other rant! So we are going to embrace this time. I've always wanted to stay home longer than what I get to take off when we do have a baby. This time allows us to get pregnant and have me lounging around the house (stress fress!) and start graduate school. I have nothing else to do, right? I will be applying for jobs, don't get me wrong, but I'm being realistic and know my chances. I will hopefully sub in the district or at the school where I'm currently interning.

We currently have our house on the market, in case you didn't know. I'm wanting to pull it because I don't want to move into an apartment and have a baby. No offense to those who have but it's not what I want to do. I figure we could take it off the market and do the updates that we had planned to do anyways and just enjoy it a little longer.

In case you haven't noticed, I'm a very realistic person. I dislike pumping yourself up only to feel deflated when things don't go the way you had envisioned. I'm a huge daydreamer also!

I'm hosting my sister's baby shower next weekend so pictures will be up soon. I love the spring time!

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
 - Marilyn Monroe